I'm back from Taiwan, Singapore n hometown...

But still busy coz hav lots of stuffs to pack n clean.. n will be flying to Kelantan in 2 days..

Busy..busy...

Will update Later when I'm more free...

hehehee...

 Happie holidays!!!

o0ps.. sorrie...  Was busy for Final exams so din get to update.

Its 3.25am of 14th Oct now....  Few more hours n I'll be on my way to singapore, then Taiwan..

Hehe...

Aih... these few days... my Luck is just so damn bad...

Sum stupid idiot theif stole my Purse n Handphone the day before yesterday...

Argh.... There goes my Fav LV purse, my ATM cards... Ic n all...

Why am I so stupid to leave my bag outside the Exam hall??

Today, whole day I was running around to appeal for my New Ic, ATM cards n all...

Lucky I got all settled...

Oh... n my handphone!!  ALL the contact numbers in it...

Haih......  n sum of the photos I treasure so much....

Anyway, I have very complicated feelings rite now..

I'm still sad n angry bout my stolen purse n HP..

I'm excited and happie coz I'm going to Taiwan in 2 days' time....

I'm worried bout the job selection at Proton.

I'm frustrated that ZZ havent send me the plan n proposal for our trip.

I'm also feeling very tired coz I din get sufficient time to rest n sleep during exam week... n today whole day running around.

Well, I still havent pack my luggage      :P

N I'm sleepy now..

So I think I'll sleep now n pack my luggage when I wake up tomorrow..

Tomorrow noon I'm leaving to s'pore d

HAHa....

Let's hope my trip is smooth and interesting !!!

Ciaoz...

dear blog space,

I'm sad... but I dont know why..

Although its my bthday... but I'm still sad...

Last nite when CH called me at 12 to wish me hp bd... I cried....  I'm not touched.. just sad...

But of course I wont let anyone know I cried...

Its his bd also... so I wished him back n chatted over the phone for a while..

After that chyi came over to get photos from my laptop..

Nothing special happened... just like what I thought it will be...

I slept around 3am after watching a movie...

A number of frens... ym'ed me to wish me...  I'm happie bout tat.. no matter they r sincere o not.. it doesnt matter.... haha

Just now I read sum blogs...

N suddenly I realize... I'm just not worth it....

I'm not worth it to ppl that I care all this while..

Damn.. I'm so not worth... even to ppl tat Is closest to me ..... not only frens.. but also family...

haih.....  I'm more sad n upset now...

Is it becoz I'm a bad person???  Everyone hates me???

Is it I am not a good fren???  Or I'm not a good _____ ???

Haih..........

Why is all these happening to me???

I remember I used to be a very happy-go-lucky gal back in secondary n Alpha....

I'm always smiling n I hav lots of good frens around me that is always there for me when I need them.... I was never sad.... I'm also very talkative last time... love to go out n hav fun..

How come.. now I'm always so quiet n passive??  I hav very few good frens around me.. n none that will be there when I'm in need???

Oh yes... maybe u'll say its becoz I'm older n not in secondary school anymore...

I know tat.... But I'm still sad no matter wat or how...

I'm trying to accept the cruel truth of this world....

But It's really very suffering to be in this world...

Sumtimes I really wonder that is the purpose I'm still living in this world....

Haih...........................................................

I know I am lazy la wey... hehe

I'm lazy to upload pics here . .. lazy to learn to go html... to upload pics here...

To change to nice nice layouts.... change the design n style..

I'm lazy..

n afterall... wat for??

NOt tat anybody is gonna visit here n read rite...

This is a lil secret I kept here.. for me to type out watever I am thinking n all...

So no need to make it nice nice..

As all is words for me to express n remember in the future..

For ppl that know me really well.. shud know that I hav short term memory....

so I hav to think of sum ways for me to remind myself or remember watever happened...

so typing out here is currently the best solution

haha

:P

cheerzzz

Had a very rush life since last Fri till now (sun noon)

Planned to go penang n hav fun vf two jimuis n bro n dai sou...

So bro came to cyber on mon nite .... n stayed overnite... then waited me to come back from class the next morning..

The next morning was Tues.. I had BSM presentation...  so I hav to rush alot.. plus Mon nite I was making cake for dear glenda n yc n rach n ky n...... etc.. haha

Made alot of cake... the first time i make so much cheese cake in my life...

But was happie tho... I know the cake is not very nice... but at least it looks ok... haha...  comforting myself   :P

Anyway.. since mon ky came over my place n both of us make the cheesecake till around 10am... in between while waiting for the mixture to mix.... we made jelly too.. peach ones... but not so nice coz not sweet enuf...

Vini helped too... to 'kopek' the oreo biscuits n smash it.. then she went off...haha

Mon nite i get to only sleep for 3 hours... actually didnt plan to sleep... but dozed off around 2am ... dun know how i turn up laying on my bed... when wat i actually remember is I am packing the luggage.. hm..

My room was in a very very messy condition as Sun nite I juz got back from Klang.. the senior shooting thingy... then Mon got class 9am- 7pm... then hav to make cake.. then Tues morning got presentation.. then right after presentation hav to rush to penang...

hewZ~~~

So here the actual story starts...

Tues after pass cheese cake to rach for her to giv yc.... n settle every arrangements... depart from Cyber to Penang vf bro..

hey hey... first time long journey for vacation vf bro wey.... heeheee... was so happie..

On the way... we dropped by taiping to get the 1.5kg longan key-shaped cake for py...

then ate the famous 'hong dao peng' ... n lut lut there..

then when we are eating... suddenly auntie smsed me...... said that mum is at malacca pantai hospital....  mum;s feeling pain on her right side under her stomach.... waist there....

then might be appendics or  'dan shen shi' sumthing..

If its appendics then its not a very big case... but will hav to wait till  the test results is out.. thne only know wat happens..

So when we get the news that mum is at pantai... both of us were thinking whether we shud g back o wat... but... since bro said we r already at taiping... might as well go right to penang... its near than to back malacca.... n wait for the test results out only we see how..

so we continue our journey to penang....

then tat nite we checked in at Paradise Sandy Bay at tg bunga.....

That nite... the test result is out.. its not appendics...  but not sure whether is it ' dan shen shi fa yan' or wat... ( i duno wat its called in english )

so nvm.. we just sleep n bro continue bluffing py... hhehe...

but I start to feel sad for not being able to be by mum's side while she need us.. n the worse is...  both useless child is enjoying at penang....

aih.....................  I felt sad n bad... but couldnt show it coz bro said dowan see me black blac face.... so I tried to be happie n cheerful...

so the next morning woke up... went to shop a lil at penang... then helped bro vf his presents for py..

then we rush to UUM which is so near to Hatyai.. 8km wey...  but need two hours' drive to reach from penang to UUM..

when we reach UUM... gave py a surprise... fetched RH too.. n off we went back to penang..

on the way back we kept calling aunt n mum at pantai... wanna know how is the progress...

so mum is 'dan shen shi' .. n she's already in n out of the operation room.... doc said the operation is very successfull....

so this is wat i get from the net -- http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Gallbladder#Cholelithiasis

when mum heard my voice... her tears fell.. i can hear that over the phone.. I asked her is she crying but she said no.. but I know she is... so after she passed the phone to aunt...

Aunt said she cried.... once i put down the phone... i cried too...

but kor didnt know... no one knows....

I'm sad.... n felt very bad.... I wanna be by her side... wanna hug her....  but I'm stucked at penang...

I jokingly asked bro if I can take air plane back to KLIa then rush to malacca.. but he didnt react... so I know the answer...  aih...

ok.. so continue....

Supposingly we planned to go tambun for seafood... but the traffic jam is too bad... so we end up having steamboat at this big bungalow like restaurant near tg bunga....

after dinner... went back to the hotel ... n bro lead py to the beach while me n RH rush to the room n prepare another surprise for her...

but the hotel service is so damn bad.....  rated 4 star but didnt give 4 star's service... argh....

okok.. maybe i'm complaining too much... hee..hee.. but bro said that too.. 

kor : maybe we r too used to 5 stars' service... cant blame them now..

so when its sharp 12 o clock.. bro n py was at the room's door..

once they entered.. the room's environment is very romantic coz the light's off but purple lavender candles are lighted around the room... n at the middle... on the table.. is the big key-shaped cake...

At tat moment .. I can see the py is so touched n happie...

So after singing happie bthday song... me n Rh went back to our own room.. hav to giv kor n py sum candlelight time mah.... takkan wanna be mentol there rite..

haha..

Then after me n Rh went back to our room.. changed to shorts... hehe.. then its photo session...

we went to the beach.. took sum pics... then walked pass the swimming pool which is rite beside the beach... so both of us stepped into the pool n start snapping pics of each other...hahha

the guard is standing there looking at us... but didnt interupt.. heeheee

after tat... around 2am went back to room n played vf the manicure thingy... then I dozed off half way..

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the next day.. which is Thursday... we went to Komtar, Prangi mall... shopped for few hours... coz RH n Py wanna go there.. so me n kor just accompany them.. while my heart is at pantai...

while walking around i search for novels for ching.. n saw a very cute mirrow .... bought it for cL.

then CL msged me tat she wanna eat 'dao sa pia' ... so we went to search for the famous old brand dragonball biscuits...

after that... we had dinner at gurney... then around 9pm... sent them back to UUM...

When we left UUM.. its already 11pm..

SO we plan to straight away drive back to malacca pantai... reach malacca shud be morning then can see mummy !!!

but half way when we gonna reach KL... bro is too tired.. n he dun wanna let me drive !!!!!

So we stopped at duno which tempat berehat n both dozed off there...

While I am going to fall asleep... suddenly I heard sum eery sound... very scary...

First is sum babies crying so loud... high pitch.. then suddenly a woman's voice laughing out loud... high pitch too... like a bit wicky....

My first reaction is to open my eyes... when I open my eyes.. my bro is rite infront facing me.. he too woke up ... n then I ask him wat is it.. he told me its the radio... But I know it isnt... but I know we give to much reaction... so I just close my eyes n tried to sleep back.. but I cant fall asleep... since bro is too tired... he fall asleep straight away..

While I'm closing my eyes... I started to feel very scared.. I dun dare to open my eyes.... just chanted Namoamitabha in my heart...

then duno when.. I too fall asleep...hehe

when we woke up around 7am ++.. we continue our journey... rushing back to malacca...

once we reach malacca... first thing we do is to go to the hospital..

Mum is very happie once she saw us.... hehhe

I am happie too...

yayay~~ Thank god she's ok... Thank papa... Thanks popo... Thanks gong gong.... Thanksss

hewz~~~

That nite.. Friday.. me n bro went to jonker... had dinner there... n bought sum cute stuffs... then he went to sleep at the stupid Kings hotel vf aunt.. while I accompany mum overnite at the hospital....

Then day, Sat..... around noon time..we depart back segamat vf mum...

then Today Sun... around 10am... me n bro depart from segamat.... back to cyber...

Reached cyber around 130pm... coz stopped at jementah n ayer keroh in between..

n here I am typing this out....

From Tues til Sun.... I've traveled from

Cyber ---> Taiping ---> Penang ---> UUM ( near Thailand ) ---> Penang ---> Kedah --> UUM ---> Malacca  -----> Segamat ----> Cyber ..

Hewz```` duno spent how much time on the car  man!!!!

But was really really glad that mum's ok... going back to segamat again this coming Thurs... n to malacca again on Fri,,

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Another issue I;m worried is yc seems to be angrie at me.. n vini...

I dont know y... I wanna find out..

I'm not happie for ppl to be angry at me without me knowing the reasons... just like SL .... I dont wan to lose another fren...

I'm really not happie now...

Argh ...........................................................

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Tomorrow morning going to present out Nanagoz idea to Nestle... hope it goes well....

'' tat's all for now ''